new @ from a tumblr legacy user who has had an active account for what must be over or close to 10 years now (time is cruel)

i can’t remember all my tumblr usernames but I’m sure that save a few people i still have contact with, i don’t recognise any of the people I’ve met over the years here either.

in any case I’m amalie and if people ask it’s never been anything else

i don’t know if i’ll be more active this time either but it’s comforting to have this in the ether somewhere. to realise you’ve come a long way but not so long that you can’t still barely make out the blurry silhouette of a deeply confused 13 year old posting about sherlock and desperately trying to figure out the purpose of the universe and where one fits in

I make music sometimes now, proper. And I’ve started writing a bit too. Actually i feel better and more confident than i ever thought i would get to feel, and if the deeply confused 13 year old is somehow reading this:

for lack of a better way of putting it, it does get better. I can not answer you if all the years of isolation and trying and failing were worth it, not that i even have to, but for what it’s worth there comes a point where things start to make sense instead of the all consuming near constant hopeless bleak despair. I wish you could see it buddy

fourhourgiant:
“still the most important moment in the history of television
” fourhourgiant:
“still the most important moment in the history of television
” fourhourgiant:
“still the most important moment in the history of television
” fourhourgiant:
“still the most important moment in the history of television
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fourhourgiant:

still the most important moment in the history of television

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that’s not very #lesbian of you

pokemonheritageposts:

emmas-dilemma:

sweetmeatdale:

monzaemon:

WHY does team rockets pokedex talk like this ???

Pokédex: dreadnaw, the BITE Pokemon! A water and rock type. And I don’t- I don’t know?

Powokedex: Drednyaw, DA BITE Powokemon! A wata and wock type UwU. And I dwon’t- I dwon’t know? ÓwÒ

Pokemon Heritage Post

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amalieeeeee:

Honningbarna - Animorphs (full album english lyrics)

  1. Animorphs

    Rich people to lizards
    Lizards to dreams
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Dreams to plankton
    Plankton to sisters
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Brothers to jellyfish
    Jellyfish to pandemic
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Pandemic to larvae
    Larvae to truth
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Truth to mareel
    Mareel to everything
    Animorphs
    I am on my way
    We live
  2. Passasjer (Passenger)

    I am a passenger
    I turn time into life
    To bodies, streets
    I wait
    While Taliban takes Kabul
    And other things happen
    We meet people we know out on the town
    Nice weather, tell your mother i said hi

    We do everything, feel nothing
    In my town i am a king
    Cold war, pretty faces
    In my town we love our fate

    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not

    Start over
    Start over
    Start over
    Again, again, again

    We do everything again
    Still feel nothing at all
    In my town i will always be a king
    In my town we laugh at our fate

    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    But in my town, we laugh at our fate

    Things are different
    Things are different
    Things are different
    And i think you have felt it in the air
    Nothing ever lasts forever
    I think it is our turn soon

    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe nooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
  3. Jeg Har Lyst (I Want To)

    Kidnap me, i give you the keys to the house
    Set fire to my nervous system
    Show me life i haven’t lived yet

    New colours, new life, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    New colours, new life, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    I want to, i want to, i want to

    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet

    You ask to speak and you demand lots of meaning
    A way to revolution
    Become buddha, understand everything (yeah yeah)

    Can you please let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just [???]
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna [???]
    Shut up and let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just (???)
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna (???)

    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet

    New colours, new lives, new eyes
    New brainwaves, chemicals, dreams
    New delights, new people, new tastes
    New injuries, moods, days
    New kicks, intensities, new sounds, new smells
    Everything is chaos for the idiot
    The idiocy of embracing all of that

    New colours, new lives, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    Shut up and let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna

    Give me life i haven’t lived
    Give me life i haven’t lived
  4. Jeg Hører (I Hear)

    I walk
    I see
    I die of thirst and i feel shit is happening
    I feel nature call me boy, i hear

    I sleep, i laugh
    I am your friend, but on your own it is downhill
    I hear nature calling me boy and i hear

    I hear x4

    I masturbate
    I pray
    I meet monkeys and they beg for my soul
    I feel nature calling boy, i hear

    Monkey (monkey)
    King (king)
    Dry my tears and holds my hand
    I can not turn around anymore even if it didn’t call
    Boy, i’m slipping

    I am not thirsty anymore
    I walk in fields of green
    I am where nature calls, boy
    I heard

    Me monkey
    Me stressed
    Me go boom boom
    Me monkey
    Me dumb dumb
    Me stressed
    Me go boom boom

    Boom boom, Boom boom

    Me monkey
    Me monkey
    Me go boom boom
  5. Det kommer til meg (It Comes To Me)

    It comes to me
    Every time, same sound
    Since i was born
    Epiphanies, again, again

    It comes to me
    Like tax notices
    Like exes (again, again)
    It comes to me
    Like infection
    Like the flowers (again, again)

    Cause it rings inside my head
    It’s the sounds, moments louder than the noise
    He promises me i am gonna be someone new

    A new time, a new body
    A new me, a different you
    Again, again

    I heard it when i was born
    I heard it when i was Confirmed* (When i was confirmed)
    It is the sound of my fathers gaze
    I hear it when Rodman lets go

    (It comes to me!)

    I hear it in my hands
    It sounds like your moralism
    I hear it every concert
    I am gonna hear it when i die

    It is the sound of my mothers lap
    I hear it in Van Damme’s split
    I hear it in your flattery
    It is the sound of a perfect day
    I heard it in my brothers
    I hear it when i know, i know
    It is the sound of my first kiss
    I heard it when Anders** left

    My son shall hear it when he is born x4

    * Confirmation = Konfirmasjon is a traditional ritual that is done the year people turn 15 and just google it really.
    ** Anders was the first Honningbarna drummer and he died in a car crash at 20 years old in 2012
  6. Åh Bliss (Oh Bliss)

    Your hunger is mine
    Oh bliss, oh bliss
    Hollow bodies in motion
    We know this flesh is everything

    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion

    We came to ourselves
    You spoke of something eternal
    The words sounded so fucking stupid
    This too shall pass

    Cause things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion

    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it
    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
  7. Avanti

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    Having fun makes me happy
    If it isn’t fun it’s good still
    Balance is good
    I think this will turn out well

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    When you are glad i am glad
    When you are sad i am confused
    Being open about it is probably good
    I think i’m doing better than before

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    Living makes me happy
    That i’m dying is probably fine
    In the meantime everything is fine
    I take what i get each day

    Think positive, stay active
    Avanti, avanti
    I think positive, stay active
    I am a happy guy
    Avanti
    Living makes me happy
    Cause Honningbarna makes me happy
    That i am dying is probably fine
    I am having fun in the meantime

8. Når alt det treffer oss (When everything hits)

Will to build
Will to tear it down
Restless hands
I will do what they ask of me

Will to feast
Will to starve
I will do what they ask of me
I will do what they ask of me

All that, all that
When all of it hits us
All that is all i want
All that, all that
When all of it hits us
All that is all i want
All of it

Will for a sweet life
Will for a hard life
I feel instincts

I will do what it takes

All that, all that
When all of it hits us
All that is all i want
All that, all that
When all of it hits us
All that is all i want
All of it

All that, all that
All that, all that
All that is all I want

All that, all that
All that, all that
All that Is all I want
All that
All that

9. En av oss er idiot (One of us is the idiot)

I hear
sounds
of the world
collapse
And it sounds like nothing has happened at all

I see
things
collapse
bang bang
And both of us have paid for the view

Cause you are silent now
But all I ask is that you see what I see
Cause you are silent now

I don’t have the time to see what is happening

I feel
how
the world
is torn apart
But I can see you don’t feel anything at all

So are you
the prophet
god’s favourite
the decree
In that case can you just die for us soon

Cause you are silent now
But all I ask is that you see what I see
Cause you are silent now

I don’t have the time to see what is happening

I don’t have the time to see what is happening

So is it
Me or
You who
Lie
When you talk like nothing has happened at all

If you don’t
Feel
how
it burns
how the fuck can we share anything at all
How can we be friends

Cause one of us is an idiot
And one of us is fucking lucky
Cause one of us is an idiot
And one of us is fucking lucky

One of us is an idiot
And one of us is fucking lucky
One of us is an idiot
So who of us is the idiot

10. Øyane er mosaikk (My eyes are mosaic)

What is real, who knows, who cares
I feel forced truth, sensations inside of me
Everything here is foreign, with pretty colours
Everything comes, everything comes
it goes, it goes, it goes
it comes

And it is your fault
that it comes and it comes and it goes x3
it comes

I need reality
like I need my student loans
like I need a target audience
like I need rich people that don’t do it for the money
I need climate crisis and Lindmo*
another friend with depression
like Jesus
like holes in my jeans
like I need the confusion
like I need incels
a safe space
a broken screen
I need a hobby
like a little motivation
like I need to be offended
like a gründer
an IQ test

it comes and it comes and it goes x3
it comes

And it is your fault my eyes turned into mosaic
And it is your fault everything I see has turned to fragments

[It comes and it comes and it goes]

* Norwegian talk show host

11. Mitt Hus (My house)

Fortune cookie said I have no choice
The universe has a plan for everything
Heard a podcast say it is genetics
Never ask them what the fuck Edvard* thinks

My house is no church
Inside is a man and not a dog
I haven’t eaten in four days
Three weeks to my demise
My house is no church
I build my own goddamn cross
Fortune cookie hasn’t met me yet
I bought the nails yesterday

I don’t decide my face
It decides a lot less than it knows
Everything it says has been said once (Everything it says has been said once)
What else is left other than denying it
Other than feeding it

My house is no church
Inside is a man and not a dog
I haven’t eaten in fourteen days
Two weeks until my demise
My house is no church
I build my own goddamn cross
Fortune cookie hasn’t met me yet
I bought the nails yesterday

My house is no church
Inside is a man and not a dog
I haven’t eaten in four weeks
Man above own demise
My house is no church
I build my own goddamn cross
Fortune cookie hasn’t met me yet
I bought the nails yesterday
I bought the nails yesterday

12. Ække noe kirke (Ain’t no church)

My house
Ain’t no church
A man
Not a dog
My house
Ain’t no church
A man
Not a dog
My house
Ain’t no church
A man
Not a dog
My house
Ain’t no church
A man
Not a dog

I build my own goddamn cross x6

Honningbarna - Animorphs (full album english lyrics)

  1. Animorphs

    Rich people to lizards
    Lizards to dreams
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Dreams to plankton
    Plankton to sisters
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Brothers to jellyfish
    Jellyfish to pandemic
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Pandemic to larvae
    Larvae to truth
    Animorphs, Animorphs

    Truth to mareel
    Mareel to everything
    Animorphs
    I am on my way
    We live
  2. Passasjer (Passenger)

    I am a passenger
    I turn time into life
    To bodies, streets
    I wait
    While Taliban takes Kabul
    And other things happen
    We meet people we know out on the town
    Nice weather, tell your mother i said hi

    We do everything, feel nothing
    In my town i am a king
    Cold war, pretty faces
    In my town we love our fate

    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not

    Start over
    Start over
    Start over
    Again, again, again

    We do everything again
    Still feel nothing at all
    In my town i will always be a king
    In my town we laugh at our fate

    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Is it our turn yet?
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    But in my town, we laugh at our fate

    Things are different
    Things are different
    Things are different
    And i think you have felt it in the air
    Nothing ever lasts forever
    I think it is our turn soon

    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe not
    Maybe, maybe nooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
  3. Jeg Har Lyst (I Want To)

    Kidnap me, i give you the keys to the house
    Set fire to my nervous system
    Show me life i haven’t lived yet

    New colours, new life, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    New colours, new life, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    I want to, i want to, i want to

    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet

    You ask to speak and you demand lots of meaning
    A way to revolution
    Become buddha, understand everything (yeah yeah)

    Can you please let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just [???]
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna [???]
    Shut up and let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just (???)
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna (???)

    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet
    Give me a life
    Give me a life i haven’t lived yet

    New colours, new lives, new eyes
    New brainwaves, chemicals, dreams
    New delights, new people, new tastes
    New injuries, moods, days
    New kicks, intensities, new sounds, new smells
    Everything is chaos for the idiot
    The idiocy of embracing all of that

    New colours, new lives, new eyes
    New movements for the idiot
    New brainwaves, new chemicals
    New dreams for the idiot
    Shut up and let chaos be chaos
    No truths tonight just
    An idiot, two hands, lots of dreams
    I want to live and tonight i wanna

    Give me life i haven’t lived
    Give me life i haven’t lived
  4. Jeg Hører (I Hear)

    I walk
    I see
    I die of thirst and i feel shit is happening
    I feel nature call me boy, i hear

    I sleep, i laugh
    I am your friend, but on your own it is downhill
    I hear nature calling me boy and i hear

    I hear x4

    I masturbate
    I pray
    I meet monkeys and they beg for my soul
    I feel nature calling boy, i hear

    Monkey (monkey)
    King (king)
    Dry my tears and holds my hand
    I can not turn around anymore even if it didn’t call
    Boy, i’m slipping

    I am not thirsty anymore
    I walk in fields of green
    I am where nature calls, boy
    I heard

    Me monkey
    Me stressed
    Me go boom boom
    Me monkey
    Me dumb dumb
    Me stressed
    Me go boom boom

    Boom boom, Boom boom

    Me monkey
    Me monkey
    Me go boom boom
  5. Det kommer til meg (It Comes To Me)

    It comes to me
    Every time, same sound
    Since i was born
    Epiphanies, again, again

    It comes to me
    Like tax notices
    Like exes (again, again)
    It comes to me
    Like infection
    Like the flowers (again, again)

    Cause it rings inside my head
    It’s the sounds, moments louder than the noise
    He promises me i am gonna be someone new

    A new time, a new body
    A new me, a different you
    Again, again

    I heard it when i was born
    I heard it when i was Confirmed* (When i was confirmed)
    It is the sound of my fathers gaze
    I hear it when Rodman lets go

    (It comes to me!)

    I hear it in my hands
    It sounds like your moralism
    I hear it every concert
    I am gonna hear it when i die

    It is the sound of my mothers lap
    I hear it in Van Damme’s split
    I hear it in your flattery
    It is the sound of a perfect day
    I heard it in my brothers
    I hear it when i know, i know
    It is the sound of my first kiss
    I heard it when Anders** left

    My son shall hear it when he is born x4

    * Confirmation = Konfirmasjon is a traditional ritual that is done the year people turn 15 and just google it really.
    ** Anders was the first Honningbarna drummer and he died in a car crash at 20 years old in 2012
  6. Åh Bliss (Oh Bliss)

    Your hunger is mine
    Oh bliss, oh bliss
    Hollow bodies in motion
    We know this flesh is everything

    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion

    We came to ourselves
    You spoke of something eternal
    The words sounded so fucking stupid
    This too shall pass

    Cause things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion

    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it
    Things were clear in the spit
    We washed off, named ourselves in it

    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
    We expected way too much
    Much more than matter
    The one truth here is the hunger
    And flesh in motion
  7. Avanti

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    Having fun makes me happy
    If it isn’t fun it’s good still
    Balance is good
    I think this will turn out well

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    When you are glad i am glad
    When you are sad i am confused
    Being open about it is probably good
    I think i’m doing better than before

    I am a happy guy
    Avanti, avanti
    I am a happy guy
    100% life guarantee

    Living makes me happy
    That i’m dying is probably fine
    In the meantime everything is fine
    I take what i get each day

    Think positive, stay active
    Avanti, avanti
    I think positive, stay active
    I am a happy guy
    Avanti
    Living makes me happy
    Cause Honningbarna makes me happy
    That i am dying is probably fine
    I am having fun in the meantime

chongoblog:

“Beat It” by Michael Jackson is so fuckin funny. It’s just like “bro, just get the fuck outta here” *van halen guitar solo*

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William Bouguereau (1825 - 1905) 

The Newborn Lamb, 1873

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Sulphur Tuft Hypholoma fasciculare

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